hey everyone who still reads this (aka 2) haha

man  college i don't even know where to begin.  there are so many conflicting feels i have about it. at first it seemed so foreign  and so  unusual   now that i have gotten into the swing of things   i still feel like  i want to be home all the time,  but then when i am home   i don't really feel at home either because  i haven't been there in soo long.  its just  a really bad feeling sometime  and it is brought up in my new favorite movie  garden state,  i just can't stop talking about it.  everything about that movie  is just   beautiful.  i mean at times  it seems like the worst time in someones life but turns out to be  amazing  and life changing.  it just says a lot about the way  people work, and i have been totally blown away by this film.   lately i have been increasing interested in the way people associate with other people  and the way a person operates to a given sitsuation.  man   life is such a weird thing, in the same day   u can have the greatest thing  ever  and the worst thing ever.  its just soo weird, and the only way to get out of it alive is with others.  friends make any situation a bit easier to bare.  there are so many things i would have done differently  if i had the chance.  but in life  thats not how it works, and i have to move on and just learn from those things.  its so weird because  i feel that i can give really good advice to people when they are having problems, but in my own life  i am totally oblivious to sitsuations and the remedies i would give to people who ask me.  i can help people more than i can help myself, of course maybe its because i don't wanna listen to my own advice.  maybe  my advice would be something that would be good for me   down the line  but right away something that i think i need  or better word    want.  don't get me wrong about college     college is just amazing  in its own right,  i just feel  that i was ill prepared for it all.  and when i woke up in the middle of it all  i found out that i was drownding.  and right now its still debateable whether or not i am drownding  i mean   my grades  (in my opinion) are really good  i feel proud of my grades and thats all that matters.  and everything else that goes along with college   is SLOWLY getting better  so  thats good  okay i have been talking to much  so   i will go i guess   bye talk to u guys later. 

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Hey everyone  haha    MAN I got u all.  You all thought that i had given up on xanga.  Well u all were wrong  ZING!!!!!  Well  its october, and i am in college.  Haha  WOW  take about the craziest 2 months of my life so far.  Filled with some of the best times of my life (well actually not really because of there are certain people that are close to my heart that aren't here)  okay so   good times and  the low times  which are getting much more frequent.  I kinda have been trying to find who i am really am, because i have no idea who cory grell is.   I MEAN  I HAVE NO IDEA WHO I AM.  I always thought i did, but i was just pretending. And now i am going through something that has turned my world upside down.  And its all thanks to a girl, haha  and actually i thank her for this.  Everyone needs to find themselves  and it just happens that i am looking at this because of a girl.  Because  i would have given up my life, just to make sure she would go through life without pain.  I would have changed my entire life just so i could be with this woman.  And i never thought i could love someone this much.  And it just happened so fast and the emotions we so intense, that   i don't think i can love again.  I honestly don't think, because  even know i think about her more than any person on the freakin' planet.  When i zone out in class i think about where she is and is she happy.  and if i think she is happy, then that makes me happy.  But whatever i guess i am gonna keep going with xanga, so i will eventually start talking about things here and how much it sucks here.  Soo  for the few people that will ever see this  thats what i have to say.  Bye  "Godspeed"

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